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28 July 2009 @ 02:33 am
 
Well, we found out today that my grandmother passed away. She was 92 and had been declining in recent years, so it wasn't unexpected. I think I was more despondent upon hearing that she was suffering from dementia and couldn't remember people or where she was. It kind of feels like she'd already been gone in a way. At least now she's in a better place.

We'd been debating going up to see her again, but I think it would have been odd to see her in that state. I'd like to remember her as she was. We'll be driving up to South Dakota on Wednesday for the funeral. That will be a nice chance to say goodbye. I feel like just reflecting on and celebrating the good times we had, what I'd like to remember most about her.

Here's a couple lines that I wrote as part of a song back when I first heard about the degree of her dementia:

It's hard to know that you're still here
But you're already gone...

Will you remember me
When you pass on?
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Lynnsey: depressedlynn82md on July 28th, 2009 03:54 pm (UTC)
Sorry to hear about your loss :( You and your family have my condolences.

It doesn't feel good to be not remembered by a family member that you've known for a long time. My dad's aunt asked me who I was when I saw her at my other grandfather's funeral (the one that died from cancer two years ago). Then, a fifteen minutes later, she asked for me after I told her who I was earlier. I tried not to take it personally because I knew in advanced she had Altimzer's (sp?), but I felt a bit rejected. My SO went through the same thing with his grandmother.