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05 November 2003 @ 01:52 am
Things to do:  
- Write novel (I actually looked at it... How in the world am I going to have this chapter make sense?)
- Build area (One more room desc and the shops are done! Then I just need to write descs for the library, festival grounds, and the surrounding woods and creek. And then the rest of the mobs and objs, and someone must help me with progs...)
- Stop playing FR so much (Hm.. not very likely to happen soon...)
- Look into modeling agencies (I have a website somewhere...)
- Finish coloring Dionae pic (Working on it)
- Finish coloring Mordred pic (Oh right, I forgot about him...)
- Work on dragon pic for DeeDee (Still developing in my mind...)
- Work on various other pic ideas ("Mourn", "Dominion and Dionae", "Maglor", etc.)
- Set up things for demon-summoning quest (Mob desc and basic gameplan, then getting my necros together)
- Get driver's license (Yes, I still need to.. but I never go anywhere...)
- Anything else I've forgotten

I suppose more of these should have to do with real life, but I'm kind of lacking in that area at the moment... I really should write more though. It's hard to call myself a writer when I don't write. Or the things I do write have no real possibility of being published. I like my novel idea, I just can't figure out how to set the foundation down. And I always occupy myself with other things. Celidie/Azaeruil/Aleksey is a great story though... I'd make a novel out of that if only it didn't involve other people's characters and creations. But, it gives spirit to my life at least...
Current Mood: unaccomplished
Current Music: Blind Guardian - Time What is Time?
kenthar on November 5th, 2003 02:14 am (UTC)
So, you're like, still an imm, or what's going on here?
Richcpiseco on November 5th, 2003 05:19 am (UTC)
Terloch fired all the immortals and then handed in his own resignation...he then turned everything over to Dionae, with a rollie pollie getting half-stake in everything.
Marianneresplendentposy on November 5th, 2003 06:13 pm (UTC)
I started imming again a couple months ago. Dionae is back and trying to find a way to resurrect her brother, enlisting the help of demons and whatnot.
Vivinusvivinus on November 5th, 2003 02:24 pm (UTC)
Not to sound like a jackass. But.

Grow up

There's a name of a disease for what you have.. It's not social anxiety.. It's, um.. What was it called... Oh yes. Sloth (Laziness). You are too incredibly concentrated on yourself that the real world doesn't even exist to you. You've made yourself the center of your own little universe, who you want to be in it is in it. You're the sun and the planets that rotate around you are the few people you let in your life, but they're so far off just like the planets.

First of all, I don't care if you play FR, go ahead and fuck your future up by wasting your life away with a game that has nothing to do with you, yourself, or anybody in real life, where you somehow always end up getting upset or depressed over. It causes you to cry more than smile for Christ's sake.

And you know what? Your list of "things to do" has mostly FR related stuff that overall will take you ten times longer than your real life stuff. Actually, your list only has two things that involve real life. And together they'll only take an hour, so it's probably more than ten times.

And your little story with Chapel really isn't anything spectacular. And you do realize that Chapel has about 90% of the symptoms for being Psychotic? Go ahead and look into it, he is undoubtedly a Psychopath. And considering he spends most of his waking time attempting to dominate an RPG, I'd say he doesn't even have a good grasp on reality, probably less than you do because you've had me pushing you all these years.

To quote my Therapist, there is only TWO ways to get over social anxiety. (1)Take medication and (2)Get off your lazy ass and do things you normally don't do. The more you face your fears and do things that your anxiety holds you back from doing, the more you have that relieved feeling like "Ah, I'm glad I got that over with" or "Ah, that wasn't so bad".

But seriously, Marianne. Learn to grow up and be an adult like your age suggests you are.
The Other Grendel Slayer: wolfpicbeerwulf on November 5th, 2003 04:49 pm (UTC)
What. the. fuck.
Not to sound like a jackass? Yeah right. Does this person claim to be a friend of yours?

Don't take their words to heart, they're obviously meant to cause more harm than good.
Vivinusvivinus on November 5th, 2003 06:41 pm (UTC)
Re: What. the. fuck.
If you cator and baby people with her kind of mental diseases (Social Anxiety and the other stuff she obviously has), it only makes them softer.

People with social anxiety, especially her type in particular, put themselves as the center of the universe? By that I mean they are unbelievably self-conscious to the point where it makes social situations uncomfortable. I've been there, she's been there, many others have been there. If you baby someone and say "Aww, it's okay, you don't ever have to go out unless you want to.", well frankly it's easy to stay home and hide from everything, especially when you have a family that makes it easy for you.

You need to get out and face your fears, it's the only way to get over them, putting aside hypnosis which is only a temporary solution.

All she has to do is keep pushing herself to go out. It's not a bad place. Go get coffee, look at books at the store. All you need to do to get more comfortable in social situations is to force yourself into the situations and observe how people act. The people that are considered normal don't think about every action they do or thing they say. They have confidence. If they make a mistake, maybe people will laugh, but they laugh WITH them, not AT them, and if they DO laugh at them then it's only in a friendly joking manner. And when they screw up? It's such a common thing in life nobody really even cares or notices, it happens and it's over two seconds later and everyone moves on.

But you need to be able to go out and see that to get over with it.

Now before you comment on the help I try to give, go learn about psychology and at the least try to say something intelligent and competent, and please make sure you know you're right before you try to slander me. Thanks.
The Other Grendel Slayer: wolfpicbeerwulf on November 5th, 2003 08:38 pm (UTC)
Re: What. the. fuck.
I can appreciate what you're trying to do, but go back and look at your choice of words and the tone you took. "All she has to do is keep pushing herself to go out" is somewhat more supportive than "Get off your lazy ass", yes?
Vivinusvivinus on November 6th, 2003 02:41 pm (UTC)
Re: What. the. fuck.
Some people do not listen when spoken to like a little child. They respond and listen when you're harsh, this is something I've learned from my father when he is trying to deal with my siblings.

When you say "All you need to do is just get out", then it's an option to her. And obviously she doesn't want to get out so she will choose to stay in and live in solitude and be isolated forever.

And the reason I tell her to get off her lazy ass is because she is lazy. Sitting around all day eating when she's hungry, has no physical labor, no mental work. Nothing. All she does is sit around in a chair with a blanket on her lap playing games all day.

So I tell her to get off her lazy ass and go do something rather than wasting her life doing bullshit that nobody cares about.

Maybe her life would have more meaning if she did something productive. Like getting a job, going to school, doing community service. She probably feels like shit because she has no confidence or self esteem.