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04 July 2004 @ 12:36 am
Well, this week has not been all bad I guess... My mom and sister went to play bingo today, and they ended up winning 2,500 dollars in a progressive ‘pickle’ game. That will, for the most part, pay for fixing my dad’s car, and for Winni’s medical expenses. We went out to dinner tonight for my sister’s birthday, and went over to my brother’s place and got to see his cat Ally. She’s gotten big. She’s cute, though, and really friendly. She was playing with a moth, and finally caught it, hehe. My brother will be moving in when his lease expires at the end of the month. My mom says Ally will still probably stay in the basement, cause she doesn’t want her walking all over the counters and accidently knocking stuff off, hehe.

We’re going to be heading out to South Dakota early tomorrow morning. I’m just going to stay up, and sleep in the car. But, this way, we’ll arrive there sometime in the evening, and will be able to have dinner with our family out there, and do fireworks, etc. We’ll probably be driving back on Wednesday.

I scanned a bunch of pictures of Winni. I’ll probably post them sometime, here or on my website. I miss her... You just expect to see her, laying in her cage, or up on the couch, looking out the window, or wagging her tail all excited when you come home. My mom will probably miss her the most. She was with her everywhere. She’d sleep on the bed sometimes. My mom was sleeping last night with one of Winni’s toy bunnies that was about the same size as her. But, it’s not the same...

I had my good cry yesterday. Everyone needs one of those... Today I listened to Dream Theater’s Disappear. That has to be their saddest song... Sadder than Space-Dye Vest. It’s about a man mourning the loss of his wife, but it still seems to apply to any loss...

I’ll never forget
As you lay there and watched me

I listened to Evanescence’s My Last Breath.

Say goodnight
Don’t be afraid
Calling me, calling me as you fade to black

Nothing is really her song though... She was a very unique puppy dog. I’ll miss her being there. I still love her so much... I love all animals to begin with. But she was mine. She was so close, to all of us... My sweet little puppy dog. *sigh* Looking back at all these pictures, she was so cute... I’m going to miss that.

Why, tell me the reasons why
Try, still I don’t understand
Will I ever feel this again?
Blue sky, I’ll meet you in the end

Free them
Free the memories of you
Free me
And rest til I’m with you

A day like today
My whole world has
Been changed
Nothing you say
Will help ease
My pain

Turn, I’ll turn this slowly round
Burn, burn to feel alive again
She, she’d want me to move on
See me, this place I still belong

Give chase
To find more than I have found
And face
This time now on my own

Days disappear
And my world keeps
I feel you here
And it keeps
Me sane

So I’m moving on
I’ll never forget
As you lay there and watched me
Accepting the end
I knew you were scared
You were strong, I was trying
I gave you my hand
I said it’s okay letting go
Time to leave here
And I’ll carry on
The best that I can
Without you here beside me
Let him come take you home...
Vivinusvivinus on July 4th, 2004 06:56 am (UTC)
Marianneresplendentposy on July 7th, 2004 11:00 pm (UTC)