I wasn’t really a nerd in high school. I was too pretty maybe. There wasn’t enough about me to make fun of. I was just the “quiet girl”. I wouldn’t do much to socialize, but I was nice. I didn’t care for popularity. I hung out with the band and drama geeks. But jocks would still talk to me. I just kind of sat on the fringe of things. I think everyone was too different from me... My friends were all weird, cause I preferred weirdness to superficiality. But even with them, I was still quiet.
“And all the work we did was pointless, or seemed so at the time.
At best it was practice for real work we might do far in the future, so far that we didn’t even know at the time what we were practicing for. More often it was just an arbitrary series of hoops to jump through, words without content designed mainly for testability. (The three main causes of the Civil War were.... Test: List the three main causes of the Civil War.)
And there was no way to opt out. The adults had agreed among themselves that this was to be the route to college. The only way to escape this empty life was to submit to it.”
“And so most schools do such a bad job of teaching that the kids don’t really take it seriously-- not even the smart kids. Much of the time we were all, students and teachers both, just going through the motions.”
And that’s why I dropped out of high school...