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02 February 2005 @ 01:13 am
Hm.. a part of me just doesn’t want to extend myself beyond my own little shell, doesn’t want to get to know people, doesn’t want to do the things that “normal” people do. But then I wonder why I feel lonely, why I have no friends, why I feel so separate from other people...

In acting class today, I realized how uncomfortable I am talking and being vocal around other people. We were practicing voice in class, and we were doing a bunch of silly exercises. I just.. didn’t want to speak up. I was worried about other people hearing me, even though we all were doing the same things. In church, when we would say prayers together, I would never say them. Sometimes I’d mouth the words, but I never liked talking or singing outloud. I just keep so quiet... Meh. And, the careers I’m most interested in now are an actress or a singer... I need to get over this fear, or else.. it’s just not going to work. If I can’t get myself to speak up around my group of ten classmates, I doubt I’ll be able to sing out the lyrics to an epic song before a huge crowd of people.
|\|¡|<progress on February 2nd, 2005 06:35 am (UTC)
scream or yell. even if you have to find an empty bathroom to do it in before you have to speak in front of people/ go to your acting class. When you walk into the class, shout "HI EVERYBODY!" or something else, but force yourself if you have to. Once you've got being loud out of the way, it should have convinced you subconsciously that anything you do hence will be less abrupt, less loud.

I prefer to just scream and yell in the corner of the classroom-- there are lots of actors who are shy, and they are great when acting, but still quiet and reserved when not... Johnny Depp and Bencio Del Toro being among them. I love to perform, but I'm a quiet person. Just learn that when you're acting, or when you're singing, you're a different person with different traits and responsibilities. Think of projection as a responsibility AND a trait, while taking on the traits of individual roles as the main responsibility of acting.

Now, I'm not saying that you should be a method actor-- that's totally your call-- but the end aim is to suspend the audience's disbelief that you are an actor; to convince them that you are who you portray.