March 1st, 2003

Girl with flower

Metaphor for a missing moment...

Falling back down into my dysthymic downward spiral... I'm unhappy. I find no joy in life. I am caught up in the same monotonous routine, and it's getting me nowhere. And I don't know how to break free... I don't know what will make me happy. I just don't want to be down here anymore...

I wish I could lay in bed and sleep away the days. Everything seems so pointless right now. I tell myself not to do something if it doesn't make me happy. Nothing makes me happy... Everything I do just seems as though it is merely done to occupy the vast space of boredom. It doesn't bring me joy. It doesn't accomplish anything. I'm stuck in the same hole, just wasting all my beauty of body and mind away...
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    A Perfect Circle - Orestes