Ah, I see why I dislike going shopping, etc. by myself. It's a fear of looking like I don't know wtf I'm doing. Everyone else is so calm and collected. And I feel so lost. Which is why I prefer going with someone else who knows wtf they're doing, so I can latch onto them. But I must keep reminding myself that I don't have to know exactly what I'm doing or where I'm going. You learn things from having done them, so going out on my own is helping me to become more comfortable with things. Like driving; I started out all nervous, but now it's become routine. Yeah, I think it all comes down to a fear of looking stupid, of doing something wrong. Is this a social variant manifesting itself? I need approval, to be as competent as the rest of the crowd. And that's why people scare me. Because if I mess up, I fear what they will think. Silly girl. How to secure oneself against the world?