I guess a lot of it focuses on fear, on the unknown. I want understanding, to face these things and to learn and to grow in comfort. Right now they’re these issues that I have that are holding me back. They’re still there causing me to wonder, to doubt, causing me anxiety. But with my real life responsibilities, it’s too much to handle all at once. I have to set them aside and deal with what needs to be dealt with first. But they’re still there, hanging around my mind. Always something to worry about. I guess other people just pay no attention to these things. They deal with the real world, which is why they can take on so much more than me. Because they don’t have these other things floating around their heads. Yeah, it seems that all my difficulties are internal. Thank goodness I have a support system, or else I might be lost in this world.
Silly girl, she thinks too much. But I guess it’s good that I want to work on bettering myself, on exploring who I am, and striving to reach my full potential. My gift and my curse, I think I’ve said that before. But I’d rather be this way than any other.