Marianne (resplendentposy) wrote,

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Meh. I’m sad. And I don’t know if my medications are doing anything. My doctor just prescribed a couple new meds to try. Right now I’m still taking Anafranil (clomipramine). I’ve been taking that for years though, and I don’t know if it’s still doing me any good, cause it’s been so long since I’ve been off it. I originally started taking it for ocd and depression. Both ocd and depression seem improved, though I don’t know if that’s cause of the meds or my therapy or both. I’ve mostly just been getting depressed right before my period, but I’ve been having issues with that too. My doctor started me on Loestrin a couple months ago cause I’ve been having spotting between my periods. But that really hasn’t done anything. I’m still bleeding and I was depressed a couple weeks ago and right after it seemed as though I started on my period, although I’m supposed to start this week. And I really hope I’m not having to deal with pms twice a month now. :(

So... now my doctor has prescribed tri-levlen and clonazepam. Oh, I had been taking a small dose of propranolol for anxiety/tremor, but that didn’t do much good either, so if clonazepam doesn’t work, then she’ll have me take a larger dose of propranolol. I still experience anxiety, mainly when in stressful situations like rushing to get somewhere on time or performing onstage or around lots of people. I seem to have a perpetual tremor in my hands, though I have noticed it more when under stress. (And, looking it up, a side effect of Anafranil is tremor. So is that causing it, or is it anxiety?) Also, I have trouble breathing sometimes, like I can’t get a deep breath. It comes and goes, not necessarily just when I’m feeling anxious, so not really like a panic attack. I’ve tried asthma medications, but those didn’t seem to help, so we’re figuring it’s linked to anxiety. I don’t know if there’s a way to tell for sure though.

But, the pharmacist said that clonazepam can potentially cause dependence and shouldn’t really be used regularly longterm. My doctor prescribed it for twice a day every day though, and I’m figuring, if it does work, she’ll want me to stay on it. So, my mom wants to try and talk more with our doctor about it first. I guess I’ll try the other birth control in another week and see how that goes. I just want to be able to fix these little things that are wrong though. Or at least know for sure what’s causing them. I don’t like not being able to breathe and just guessing that it’s linked to anxiety. And I don’t even know if the med I have been taking is doing anything, other than noticing I’m improved from where I was five years ago. But a lot has changed since then too. Getting kind of tired of the guess and check method with drugs too, but how else am I going to find what works?
Tags: anxiety, health, medications, sad
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